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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2005|08:48 pm]
really. that was good. and if you're gonna do it again? leave a name. stop wasting your time.
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(no subject) [Jan. 27th, 2005|10:13 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |numbnumb]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"seveneighty" - this day and age]

long time since ive updated. umm, the only real interesting thing was elemenop fest 3. it was, of course, so much fun. i finally met ryan, who is now the love of kelli's life. but im rly happy for them. im not going to any concerts anytime soon b/c i always fuck everything up. its my hobby. thats it. heres a stupid survey. take it. or dont. i dont care.

am i...
- am i cute?
- am i pretty?
- am i crazy?
- am i lovable?
- am i funny?
- am i annoying?
- am i psycho?
- am i daring?
- am i a good person?

would you...
- would you hug me?
- would you miss me if i was gone?
- would you kiss me?
- would you make out with me?
- would you listen to my problems?
- would you be a good friend?
- would you be my best friend?

would you ever...
- would you ever go out with me?
- would you ever do it again if you already have?
- would you ever marry me if you could?
- would you ever make out with me in a cemetery?
- would you ever make out with me in the rain?
- would you ever cuddle with me?
- do me?

if you could...
- if you could give me a new name, it would be?
- if you could do one thing with me, it would be?
- if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be?
- if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go?

just a few questions...
- what do you love about me?
- what do you hate about me?
- what is my best quality?
- if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
- what is your honest opinion about me?
- what would you do if i sang out of tune?
- what song reminds you of me?
- do i remind you of any characters on tv?
- have you ever had a dream about me?
- do you think i'm a virgin?
- if you just met me, how old would you guess i am?
- am i huggable?
- if you could give me anything, what would it be?
- if you could promise me anything, what would it be?

- am i ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, gorgeous etc.?
- if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be?
- when we first talked, what were your thoughts?
- if you had to describe to someone who i am and what i am like, what would you tell them?
- what are my faults?
- what are my strengths?
- do you wish we were closer?
- why aren't we closer?
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(no subject) [Jan. 10th, 2005|10:22 pm]
A girl and guy are speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle.
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you, but slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle crashed into a building last night because of break failure. Two people were involved, a male and a female, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the 18 year old boy realized that his breaks had broke, but he didn't want to let his partner know. Instead, he made her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, and let her wear his helmet so that she would live, realizing he would be the one that would die.

If there's anyone you love this much, post this in your journal.
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(no subject) [Jan. 10th, 2005|03:47 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |mischievousmischievous]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"life on standby" - hawthorne heights]

yesterday was my bday. yay.

i got up around 11ish. went to church. fuckin stupid. i came home, had some lunch, and did wash and whatnot to get ready for the concert. my parents went to some open house but i really didnt wanna go so i stayed home. did my hair, makeup, all that stuff. they got home around 5:30 and we left as soon as they got home. went to joshums house to pick up him and ken. got to the concert. the line was fuckin huge but tom saw joshums and let us come in line with him. hes a life saver. we actually got in around 6:30. it wasnt that long of a wait. i got a hawthorne shirt as soon as i could. ken actually bought it for me. what a guy. we walked over by the stage but eventually, when the concert started, we were off to the side. they were good seats tho bc we actually got to sit down and still see everything perfect. i saw tom there. a different tom. and this kid anthony. jeff from cherry bing was there too. i didnt fuckin bring a camera. i was so pissed off. ugh. so the first to go on was the black maria. very dissapointing. i thought they woulda sounded better live. oh well. then number one fan. amazing. of course. next was spitalfield. ahhh. they fuckin rocked. oh man. it was incredible. i went over and got a number one fan shirt and a spitalfield hoodie and cd. and then. hawthorne came on. shit. it was just so much fun. i called kelli so she could listen too bc she couldnt go. but they played so awesome. ken got a hawthorne hoodie. the zipper was all fucked up and the printing on it was messed. he tried to get another one but the guy was being super cool. whatever. after the show was over, i went over to the stage and got my shoe signed by the guitarist from hawthorne. it was sweet. he was totally drenched in sweat. i got a set list too. it was around 10:15, kens mom picked us up, took joshums home, and then she took me and ken to mighty taco. yummay. i got home around 11. jake called me. we talked for an hour and a half. and then i went to sleep.

best birthday everrr. thanks guys<3
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|02:54 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |discontentdiscontent]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"life on standby" - hawthorne heights]

yesterday was sweet. i went to dereks afterschool with joshums. but i had to get home to cleaaaaaaaaan. me and my dad had to go get the food and whatever around 5:30 so by the time we got back andrew and kelli were already here. ken got here right after we got home. we all ate, they signed my wall. xxxxxxxxxxxxxL. ugh. so gross. lol. we chilled in the living room for a while bc my sis was watching some movie downstairs. jake got here aroun 7ish. met my dad so that was cool. finally. at about 8, my dad and my sis went upstairs so we could watch the movie. hahahaha, napolean dynamite. yesssssssss. oh man, that was a funny ass movie. "it took me 3 hours to finish the shading on your upper lip." we played silly golf. no one won bc we were all playing happy gilmore style. lol. there was mass amounts of food. and we all ate. a lot. andrew ate about half the pizza. it amazes me that hes not 200 pounds. or has any fat on him at all. anyways, then we all just chilled in the basement. laughed a lot. ate some more. me and ken posed nice for the tv. and they all sat on the rider. if you havent been in my basement, you wouldnt know. its this machine. thing. and you sit on it, push your feet, and pull up with your hands. so basically it looks like your humping the air. ken made some, um, interesting noises and andrew was just wayyy over doing it.

jake was the first to go. then andrew, then ken. kelli slept over so after everyone was gone we went back downstairs to watch dodgeball. not the best movie. at all. i was rly dissapointed. but whatever. i ate. again. we went to sleep around 1:30 bc we both passed out. we woke up this morning around 11. had some sweet cereal. shrek. its a benefit of having a little sister. me and kelli both had some chocolate. lol. after she left, i got ready to go to this bead place with my gma. it was actually a lot of fun. i made a hemp necklace. and i got a spool of it now. woo.

tonight, were goin out to carabbas. im so excited. ive been waiting to go there foreverrrrrr. then back to my house for cake and whatever. 2moro night, me and ken are going to the hawthorne show. oh man. i cant wait. its gonna be so much fun. especially bc im gonna be with kfizzle. lol.

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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2005|06:37 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |irritatedirritated]

up the bike punks? no. more like up the butt fucks. this whole fuckin thing has gotten way outta hand. first off, its not on anything i fuckin own. i dont even know what it is. or who it is. and i have no intention on putting anything like that on any folder i have or writing it on anything. at all. so drop it.

wow. so 2moro is gonna be fun. i get to chill with andrew, kelli, ken, and maybe jake. yeah. if he shows up. whatever. we'll see. saturday im going to carabbas. i cant wait. ive been dying to go there for a while. and then sunday me and ken are going to the hawthorne show. im excited. its gonna be awesome. thats it. fuck you. bye.
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(no subject) [Jan. 3rd, 2005|10:32 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |sicksick]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |the spill canvas - "so much"]

1. What is your name?

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
white with pink bows.

3. What are you listening to right now?
the spill canvas.

4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?

5. What was the last thing you ate?

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
black, green, or pink.

7. How is the weather right now?
its raining.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their face, i guess.

10. Favorite Food?

11. Favorite Drink?
cream soda.

12. Favorite Alcoholic drink?

13. Favorite place to shop?
no comment.

15. Eye Color?

16. Do you wear contacts?

17. Top or bottom

18. Favorite Month(s)?

19. Favorite Fast Food?
mighty taco.

20. Last Movie you Watched?
saving silverman.

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
january 28th.

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?

23. Summer or Winter?

24. Hugs or Kisses?

25. Chocolate or vanilla?

26. Do you want your friends to respond back?

27. Who is most likely to respond?

28: Who is least likely to respond?

30. What books are you reading?
the great gatsby.

31. What's on your mouse pad?
a basketball.

32. Favorite Board Game?
candyland or monopoly.

33. What did you do last night?
talked to jake<3

35. Who inspires you?

36. Butter, Plain, or salted popcorn?
butter. lots of it.

38. Favorite Flower?
pink carnations.

39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M?
get out.

40. Do you still talk to your best friend from middle school?

41. What's on your desk?
a computer?

42. Concert,Club[comedy] or Symphony?

43. shoes or clothes?

44. Have you ever neglected God?

45. Do you like to travel by plane?

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?

47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter.

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?

49. City and State you were born in?
albany, ny.

50. Stolen anything?


yeah im sick so im going to bed.

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(no subject) [Jan. 1st, 2005|11:26 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |ecstaticso unbelieveably happy.]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"halo" - foo fighters]

so lets see. the night started off with me at kellis. we chilled, listened to some music, watched futurama. jake came and picked me up around 7:15ish. then we went to some girls house named jade. the concert was there. her house is fuckin huuuuuuge. i walk into the room, and there room is filled with smoke. oh man. it was nuts. so jakes band *mellow blend* set up, went on, and then left. lol. wasnt really much to stay for after they played. they were fuckin amazing tho. me and jake went and chilled at his house for a while. we watched the ball drop. and i signed every poster in his room. hah. ill leavce it at that.

got home today around 11:30. my aunt and uncle came over so i had to go shower and whatever. they stayed till 2. then nate came over at 4ish and we made chicken parm, snow peas, and bread for dinner. at least im cooking now. lol. it was surprisingly really really good. after we cleaned up and stuff, we had to get out more food bc my family was coming over to watch elf. everyone. ugh. but we watched it. it was funnier then i expected. so. they all left around 9. nate stayed and me, him, and my dad played some poker. it was so much fun. were already making plans for next weekend. lol.

thats about it. i had the best fucking new years ever. spent it with jake. nothing could have made me happier. hes just so damn amazing.<333
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(no subject) [Dec. 29th, 2004|09:38 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |exhaustedexhausted]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"blue burns orange" - hawthorne heights]

Every thing that is starred is a Yes.

*01. I miss somebody right now.
*02. I watch more tv than I used to.
03. I love olives.
*04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books.
*06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
*12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
*15. I curse frequently.
*16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
*17. I have a hobby.
*18. I've been told I have a nice butt.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I'm really, really smart. I'm not a genius, just smart.
21. I've broken someone else's bones.
*22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
*23. I love rain.
*24. I'm paranoid at most times.
*25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
*26. I need money right now.
27. I love sushi.
*28. I talk really, really fast.
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.
*30. I have semi-long hair.
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
*32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
*34. I shave my legs.
*35. I have a twin.
37. I couldn't survive without caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
*40. I know how to do cornrows.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
*44. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
*45. I have cheated on a significant other.
46. I have a hidden talent.
*47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I think that I'm popular.
*49. I am currently single.
*50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
*51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
*53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my LJ.
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer.
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
*62. I have a cell phone.
63. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
*68. I've rejected someone before.
69. I've graduated college.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
*71. I want to have children in the future.
*72. I have changed a diaper before.
*73. I have had the cops called on me before.
*74. I bite my nails sometimes.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
*76. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
*77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger...
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
*82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
*83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
*86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
88. I enjoy country music.
*90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
*92. I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
*94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
*96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
*97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend's ex.
*99. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
*101. Had a crush on somebody you've never met.
*102. Kissed someone you knew you shouldn't.
*103. I play a musical instrument.
*104. I strongly dislike math.
*105. I'm procrastinating something right now.
*106. I own and use a library card. well i did. . . owe them lots
*107. I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
*108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "Lost."
111. I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville.
*112. There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder.
113. Sometimes I don't like food.
*114. I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about.
115. I desperately want people to respect me, but it rarely happens.
*116. I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it.
117. I am bisexual.
*118. I think Scottish accents are very attractive.
119. I'm very neurotic and suffer from acute paranoia.
*120. I speak another language besides English.
121. I joke about eating, shaking, and kicking babies.
122. I'm most likely to spend money on music.

ok then. today was amazing. got up around 930ish, got ready for the mall. went with kelli and andrew. i got some new shoes, shoelaces, and this sweet calendar. andrew got a $75 jersey. stupid. lol. we had some good ass pizza. jake showed up. we all went and spent like an hour just laying on all the beds and couches. *kid in front of zumiez* haha kelli. i love that mall. what can i say. so we went and saw darkness horrible movie. i mean, yeah, it was scary at points. but it really didnt have much of a plot line. dont waste your money. friday is gonna be awesome. i cant fuckin wait<33
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(no subject) [Dec. 28th, 2004|11:25 pm]
[.and the feelings .. |calmcalm]
[.. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. |"angels with even filthier soul" - hawthorne heights]

last night was, um, interesting? i was on the phone with nate for like, ever. and then trisha called me for the first time in forever. we actually spent hours talking about everything. it was very informative. lol. but it was nice to talk to her again. jake called me around 1:30ish? i guess he couldnt make it today b/c he had band practice and then he was helping his sister move out. so. we changed it to tomorrow so we can all go. except shelleys babysitting so its gonna be just me, jake, kelli, and andrew. im so excited. im getting new shoes. lol. and shoelaces. cant forget about them.

today was fun? i got up around 8:30 bc i had to call andrew, kelli, and shelley and tell them today was switched to tomorrow. sorry for waking you up andrew. lol. and then i went back to sleep till 11. that was nice. showered, got ready. we had some people over today that live outta state. so it was cool that they came over for a little while. they left around 4:30. then we went to the aquatic center to get a one year family membership. oh man. im so happy. now i have no excuse to not work out. and were going on vacation this summer to south carolina. so im hoping to get a little less fat. yeah. once we left there, we went to red lobster. it was smashing. no really. like, it took way too long for them to bring out our food. when they finally did, the girl went to get me another drink, came back, and i guess it slipped outta her hand? flew onto the table, spilled all over my dinner. and me. im sure that the people a couple tables over got some too. it was quite funny. i couldnt stop laughing. lol. by the time she brought me another one, i had eaten so many of those biscuts *mmm so good* that i wanst hungry. yeah. that was fun. thennn went back to my gma and gpas house to visit with some family. got home around 9. and watched a movie called fatso. so nice that people named a movie after me:-)

thats about it. i cant wait for friday<33
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